I GUESS I MUST BE HAVING A ~*BAD DAY*~ OR SOME SHIT

Currently 100% convinced I am the ugliest creature alive and that no one I like cares about me. Wondering why I have not died somehow. Considering making it happen myself.

Very, very tired.

Still at work. Need to go home but can’t afford the time off. Can’t talk to anyone about this. Will never be taken seriously again otherwise. Hard enough to be taken seriously already considering how ridiculous-looking I am. Don’t need people thinking there’s something wrong with me.

The worst thing about it is, every measure by which I judge myself - and I know exactly how harsh and irrational those judgements are - I inflict equally on other people. I just correct myself when it’s other people, or say nothing about it. It’s not a luxury I can manage to afford to myself, I guess because I can’t censor myself for myself like I can censor myself for other people. Other people don’t know I’m doing it but I can’t fool myself.

Fuck my life.

3 months ago
  1. annilylf said: You are not the ugliest creature alive and I most definitely care about you. If you want to talk I am -always- on Steam to listen to you, hun. Don’t be afraid to message me, okay?
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