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distasty asked: Read your posts, and I think you need a vacation. Imo, the further from the UK you can manage, the better you'll feel. As an infamous internet names to whatever fandom you touch, I have no doubt in my mind you could find some good friends somewhere to shack up up with for a few days to allow yourself some fun away from repetitive schedules and the same old (sometimes disappointing) faces. Saying all that, I don't know you well, or your circumstances, but I doubt you are as horrid as you claim.

The thing is, everyone says that. Everyone who says that has never seen me and it upsets me a lot. You don’t know. No one knows. I appreciate the attempt to make me feel better but really, without ever having seen me, whenever someone says that to me it seems like some kind of shallow, hollow platitude meant to keep me from complaining. You can’t say that.

Besides that, I wouldn’t inflict myself on anyone and I can’t imagine anywhere I would want to go. America is an awful, awful place and I have no money of my own to travel alone with. Also I don’t understand why a holiday would help anything. It won’t change what I look like. Nothing will change what I look like. What I look like is the problem.

Ugh, sorry to snub you like this when you were trying to help me. I must seem terrible.